Wow. So much has changed since my last post. I had really hoped to journal my thoughts and emotions here while I was "changing". I guess I'm not a girl that will stick with blogging, but will give it a luke-warm go.
Well, the biggest change is that I resigned from my teaching job a few weeks ago. With so much stress and the eternally long hours for 9 months at a time, I figured it just wasn't worth it. Life is too short to feel that miserable. At one time, I felt like teaching was my God-given vocation in life. Many years, I felt good about it and really had fun with it. The last few years I began to dread it and really felt bitter about it. I still love kids (most of them) and love the interaction of teaching, but not under the circumstances of 30+ kids in a room, strict curriculum that must be followed, undependable administration, and hovering parents. I asked God for signs and He gave them. It was my time to go.
So, what do I do now? God holds the answer! I have no idea where my path will go. For now, I am doing my usual summer things of organizing, cleaning, gardening and reading. Summer naps are good too. I've been doing a lot of praying too. God knows that I need Him to show me the way.
Enough for now. Maybe when I come back in another 6 months, I'll be able to say where that path led me.